A New Direction......

I'll tell you what......this acting thing is the shit!

Now before I start, let me just say that no, I am no "seasoned actor". My "experience" is minimal, at best. However, I feel I have what most don't.....a NATURAL ability. Sure I could use training.....why not if it's going to make me better, right? Too many people over the years have made mention and took notice that I'm just natural. They've spoken on my personality and charisma and I've heard often that I should be acting. Who would have ever known that I would finally taken them up on that? Hahahaha......

This all started last October. I was given the opportunity by a great friend of mine in the movie business by the name of Bobby Peoples of The Peoples Film Company/The Peoples Network. Our relationship was formed when he became my main video producer that I trusted to shoot all (and I mean ALL thus far) of my music videos. When it was initially brought up to me the chance that I could one day appear in one of his independent films, I thought, "cool.....that would definitely help my buzz in the music industry".

After some time, the opportunity finally materialized and I initially looked at it as nothing more than a brief cameo. Mind you, at the time I was still focusing primarily on my music career although I was extremely appreciative of the chance to work with him in HIS natural field of filmmaking and not necessarily just video production. Before this however, I felt that I had "experience" in front of the camera when we shot my first two music videos. Yea, I was seriously trippin'. Totally different!! More on that later....

Bobby (the producer of this film) and DeWitt Jones (writer & director of this film) both gave me my first shot on the set of the independent thriller, "Night Of The Jackals"! I can't tell you what it did for me to receive my first ever script to read! Granted, I didn't have much to read. In fact, my character was untitled at the time. I was told that I was playing "Thug #1". Big stretch, I know. Bobby and DeWitt give the actors room to ad-lib so that everything appears as natural as possible on-screen. That was a big help. I really didn't even stick to the script when it came down to filming on set. I had an interaction scene with an actor, Jeremy and the lead character, actress Tarjatta Rose. I basically did me. Not really understanding the entire process, I found myself momentarily reverting back to the music industry and looked right into the camera during one particular take! Yea. Seriously trippin' and lost focus for a second, but all in all, even though it was a short scene, I did my best not to let any of the seasoned professionals down in hopes that I would be considered for future roles. Just like that, my time on the set was over. I got a few pictures to remind me of my groundbreaking experience and went home with my chest full of pride. "Look at me now!", I thought to myself.

Fast forward to February and sure enough, the studio worked hard to release this film on time. I received my first ever invitation to the much-hyped "Red Carpet World Premiere". I wanted to go with the only person in the world who I wanted to share this new experience with, I went their in the company of my fiancee who I am sure was as wide eyed as I was. There I had the pleasure of being interviewed by two different media outlets in addition to being one of an exclusive few to watch the private screening. With me knowing my scene fairly well, I knew at what point it was coming up in the film. I was anxiously nervous and was more concerned with what Kim would think about my performance. Imagine my shock when I seemingly had one of the more comedic performances in the movie by the reaction of everyone in attendance! I was just being me, in my opinion, but everyone seemed very genuine in their approval and acknowledgements! I met a few (actually, a lot!) of people who were very congratulatory and sincere in their compliments regarding my very small scene and screen time. Right then is when I wanted more.....to DO more and not necessarily for the rave reviews and things that come as a part of delivering on screen, but more so because THIS is the next step for me in my path throughout this realm of entertainment. Making music was fun. This is EXCITING! Major difference.

Now that the movie is out, it's on to other film roles. I've just been informed that I'll be in the new movie "For Thy Love 2", so look for a blog coming soon on that! I'm also in preliminary talks to be in another movie, which I won't go into at this time. However, all of this is leading up to my very own written screenplay tentatively titled, "Lock & Load" later this year/middle of next year. I'm already in the studio working on the soundtrack for it. Bobby's keeping me pretty busy in between time doing the DVD cover for a series that he is also currently developing called, "Money, Power & Respect". Oh, y'all didn't know I also do graphic design?? LOL!

Yes, I am definitely headed in a NEW direction and I am all in like poker chips. Take a look at these video clips from the red carpet world premiere and the after party! I'll hit you guys up soon.......peace!

Interviews from Night of the Jackals Premiere

My interview starts at the 5:45 mark!




You can see me at the 7:42 mark!

Will She Ever?? (The Submissive's Creed)

Found this surfing the ol' 'Net and thought it was VERY insightful. It was called, "The submissive's Creed". Those that claim to be, read close and take note.....

The submissive's Creed

i am a submissive woman…

i find pleasure, joy and fulfillment from being submissive to another in a loving relationship

i am not weak or stupid. i am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what i want out of my life.

i do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.

i look to my loving Master for guidance and protection, for never am i more complete than when He is with me.

i know that He will protect my body, my mind and my soul with His strength and wisdom.

He is everything to me, as i am everything to Him.

His touch awakens me and His thoughts free me.

Only in serving Him do i find complete freedom and joy.

His punishments are harsh, but i accept them thankfully, knowing that He has my best interests always foremost in His mind.

If He desires my body for pleasure, i shall joyfully give it to Him, and take pleasure myself from knowing that i have brought Him happiness.

However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of any relationship.

The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt, those are all parts of this relationship.

my body is His, and if He says i am beautiful, then i am.

No matter what i look like to others, i am beautiful in His eyes, and because of that i hold my head high for who can tell me that my Master is wrong in seeing the beauty in me?

If He says i am His princess, then i am that…regal and graceful.

And if i see laughter at me in the eyes of others, i do not recognize it, for who are they to call my Master wrong?

If He says i am His toy, His slut, His tramp, then i am that…as wanton and dirty as He wants me to be, and if others do not see this, then it is they who are blind, not my Master.

my mind is His, to expand, to explore, to know as only He can.

i have no secrets from Him…for secrets are a thing that would keep me from being perfectly His.
Secrets would put a wall up between my Master and myself…and i do not want walls.

His lessons are not always ones i would seek on my own, but they are lessons He has decided i need, and so i learn from Him.

my soul is His, as bare to His touch as ever my skin could be when i kneel naked at His feet.

Never a moment goes by when i do not feel his presence, be He miles away or standing over me.

If i were to ever displease Him, His displeasure would be a blow to my soul, worse punishment than any lashes could be.

The anguish of my soul that i feel when i disappoint Him is harder to bear than the physical anguish i feel when His belt caresses me with fire.

i spend my days knowing that the energy and thought He puts into our relationship is as much for my benefit as for His, and look forward to each lovingly crafted scene that we do together.

i am His pleasure and His responsibility, and He takes both seriously.

i am a submissive woman. i am proud to call myself that.

my submission is a gift that i do not give lightly, and can only be given to One who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold.

Only to He who has that strength will i give myself fully, because i am strong and proud.



I wonder if I will ever be able to give her my collar or is it meant for another?

For The Love of God....Please Mind Yo' Own Fuckin' Business!!

I think I've had it up to my asshole with people talking (and STILL talking!) about Chris Brown and Rihanna. I could care less. Would you like to know why? It's simple......IT'S NOT MY FUCKIN' BUSINESS!

I find it quite sad that soooo many regular people (read: NOBODIES) have had something to say about this situation. Most people who are making wild comments are nothing more than fans with no life of their own. If they had something else going on in their lives, I doubt that they would even have the time to say one word. I mean, don't get me wrong......is it a fucked up situation? Sure it is, but do we know all of the details? No. Was anyone making comments there to witness it as it happened? NO. I'm sure that most reading this will assume that I'm condoning his actions. I assure you that I am not.....BUT believe me when I tell you that it ALWAYS takes two to tango, so to speak. Not to mention that I am and has always been a firm believer of Chris Rock's infamous, tongue-in-cheek monologue where he stated, "ain't nobody above an asswhippin'!"

It pisses me off to read blogs where they are crucifying Chris Brown and judging him before he has his day in court. However, that part of it really isn't the point of my blog. It's the losers that plug in their little videocameras or sit in front of their webcams and waste 5 minutes of their day, talking about two individuals that they do not even know. They never once think about themselves in that position and think, "how would I feel if that was my personal business all out there for the world to make commentary on?" I already know.....embarrassed. Much like they already are. However, this is never factored in to their thinking. Instead, these idiots are using the plight of these two just to have their brief five minutes of fame and to have their voices heard. I wasted five minutes of my day last week looking at a YouTube video from this one fat loser bitch who spoke about Chris and Rihanna's situation and had the audacity to say that she knows from her experience. Do you think she went into HER experience any? Hell no. It was all about the help that Chris needed to get. Okay. So I commented on her pitiful video and asked her if she thought her video would be better served if she spoke more about what she had gone through instead of throwing her opinions out there about people that she clearly didn't know. You think she responded back to me? Matter of fact, do you think that she even approved my comments?? LMAO....of course she didn't, which only incensed me even more because I felt like I was being censored simply because I didn't agree with her in the way that the other people whose comments were approved. By the way, that is a real pussy ass move. Even if you do not agree with me, at least I will approve your damn comment because I'M NOT SCARED TO HAVE PEOPLE DISAGREE WITH ME!

Now.....onto Ms. Oprah Winfrey.

http://www.eonline.com/videos/v14990094001_oprah_winfrey_warns_rihanna.html

This was clearly the worst display of self-righteousness I've seen in a long time. Oprah can go straight to hell, and that was before she said this bullshit. First off, Oprah should be THE LAST person giving anyone any kind of relationship advice. This "advice" is coming from a man-hating, dog faced bitch who couldn't give that pussy away. Is it any wonder why she's rich? What else are you going to do if you're not getting any sex? Get money, that's what. Notice the man-hating, cross dressing Tyler Perry next to her. No comment.













Hey Prez......you might wanna keep this over-opinionated bitch away from the Misses!


In closing, no, this is not another blog on Chris Brown and Rihanna. Lord knows that we don't need another one of them plus, these two are already back together and we need to wish them the best. This blog entry is about people who have nothing better to do than to speak recklessly about other individuals' personal business when their own situation may not be as rosy as they would have you believe! Who cares about your personal feelings or opinions on the matter? It's not YOU. It's simple....MIND YOUR OWN FUCKIN' BUSINESS!